Day 4 - 18th June, 2002
Today was my big day. I had an appointment today with the Computing Admissions Tutor at Imperial College. I didn't want to go out anywhere before that so that I could keep my calm and not become nervous. Although Meenaben was reluctant to leave me in the house alone I finally convinced her. I left by half past two and reached South Ken by half three. I yet had an hour to kill. I called up Saurabh to find out if he had been able to get in touch with someone I had needed info from but he hadn't. I killed some time somehow with buterflies beginning to fly in my stomach and then started walking in some random direction and ended up at Green Park which happended to be just two blocks away from Huxley Building(that's where I had my appointment). The blocks between them had these pretty buildings which were either art galleries, residence apartments or hotels. After a while in Green park I went back to Huxley building.
The appointment went well...atleast that's what I think. But Mr.Jacobson couldn't do much as he had to follow the strict policies set down by the University of London although he seemed impressed with my marks and keeness to study at Imperial. The only way out would be to do my A-Levels and join next year. I don't think I would have been able to study for three A-Level subjects in a year(when you normally take two years) and manage to get three A Grades. Maybe I would have been able to do it if I had started the moment my board exams got over in March..I might have been able to do it when I came home in July as well but I didn't have the confidence that I would have been able to do it. I wasn't upset with what the admissions tutor had told me as I had expected that and hadn't expected any miracle to happen. But I realised that I did feel bad as I felt it in my voice while speaking to some people on the phone about it in the next few days. But that's what life is...you can't get everything that you want. Like a very learned person from Lucknow once asked me "How do you define the word Struggle?" I gave many lengthy explanations but he gave a very simple answer which I feel is very true -" God Proposes, Man Opposes." So I hope all my friends now understand why I didn't got to the UK to study...I got into all the Uni's I applied to except one and I wanted only that uni. There are more reasons as well but those are too complicated to be put in writing and personal.
And I'd like to tell a special Thanks to Saurabh,Mangal,Rish and Sunil Rao for helping me out along the way.
posted by elusion @ 8/05/2002 12:25:00 AM,
